Bun needs motivation

Ate with my colleagues today. Felt like the last supper.

It was a good catchup. Noting my bz schedule.

I'm trying to motivate myself to send my résumé out. But when I reach home I am always bz. When lil bear sleeps I feel v tired too then I go sleep. I need more energy. I have to get my enthusiasm back!

Lazy bun.

Things keep popping up and I my determination keeps swaying. Oh my.. I feel so useless, can't even do a simple thing.

I realize I dun have a hobby. Nothing interests me liao. Nothing except lil bear stuff. He's the new guy in my life. Haha..

On a seperate note, I'm trying to get lil bear to sleep thru the night. I tried water, feeding him extra, all methods. Doesn't work. Hope my fatty bear sleeps tonight.

I'm running out of patience with him. I wonder when he will sleep thru. Maybe I need to chant more. Tuabapao tuabapao tuabapao tuabapao....

To quit or not?

Updated my résumé. Realize tat I got quite a lot of experience.

I wonder if I will survive out there.

Not that it's a bed of roses here. But at least I know people.

No use avoiding problems. It's always my policy.

I spent some time grooming one of my gals jus now. I realize they actually have more drive than me. I'm a bit burnt out.

I a bit sick of getting arrowed. Being left to face the politics. I blow up at every single thing that goes wrong. This is so unlike me. Need to keep cool.

K thinks I am making the wrong choice to abandon my stability. That I will regret.

True. I'm not exactly tortured here.

But I'm still gonna prepare myself. Jus in case. Jus in case I can't make it. No point feeling so sad abt work rite?

Big bosses comming back next week. The shit will repeat again. Must motivate myself.

To stay or not to stay

Tired tired tired. Bun is so tired. Think I caught lil bear virus. He was sick for the past few days. YAWN. Old bun is exhausted.

Bun is torn between whether to stay or leave. Well, on one hand, I dun like my job. On the other hand. I work with a great bunch of idiots like me, working our ass off for a bunch of freaks called senior management.

I know it's not wise to be emo when it comes to work. People take advantage, tat how it works here. But I've seem to lost my drive.

Or rather, I am sick of working here. Everyday kena arrow new stuff. Everyone thinks i am V free issit? or am i too sensitive? actually its v tiring to managw people. but yet for Managing people , well, must say I am quite good with my team. We got chemistry.

Well, still looking ard. No harm looking.. Thinking thinking thinking. Hope I make a wise choice. No regrets!

PangSai go where?

Suddenly i got this dream. im gonna create a webpage called "PangSai go where"

Rate the best toilets in singapore. Or maybe even have info abt shit. or info on toilets? haaha.. Will I get sued for copyright?

Maybe I should hor? Follow my dreams rite?

Kena SAI!

I wanna quit

Damn, I'm buckling to pressure again. I feel like quitting.

It's not that I am incapable of doing it. It's jus tat I feel I dun want to do it.

I decided not to be humble. I dun need the job. THE JOB NEEDS ME.

But I must admit. I need my people. Quite impressed wif the things they r capable of sometimes. Some things I never think of.

It's kindof strange. I decided that I must go home on time, well, I did. But yet there's so many things outstanding that I haven't done. Which I feel obliged to complete. Or shld I? Am I not efficient enough?

Last night lil bear woke up n refused to sleep. YAWN. Carried him for damn long before he zzzz.. I also carry until eyes closed. Hiez.. The sacrifice of a mummy.

Today panda bun. Lil bear still dare to smile at me this morn. Hiez, how to scold him?

Tired. Must go relax more often.

Tai Tai bun

It's a hot lazy afternoon. Bun is at a hotel lobby with my k nuahing on a soft sofa full of big fluffy cushions. We ordered a glass of ice blended Irish coffee n a slice of cake. Slowly sipping n soaking into the atmosphere. Light jazz music playing in the background jus makes the place extra cozy.

The bill's kindof ex, but well, sometimes we jus gotta enjoy a moment together. Couple time.

Its my off day today n will not grumble.

Chilling out in a high class place. Feel like sleeping. But the coffee's making me excited. Haha..

Shall enjoy my romantic date. Muahahah...

Bored bun

I dunno if I shld blog anymore. Jus loosing my interest suddenly. It's getting boring.

I've been working OT these days, with a major project comming soon. Life is gonna get bad n I jus can't seem to find my motivation. It's super sianzz. I know I shouldn't grumble but I jus feel grumpy.

I'm spending my time in my in laws now. All the screaming n shouting here. Kids. I wonder if lil bear will be like tat too. Hope not.

I used to enjoy going to my grandma Hse. My mom didnt even need to bother abt me. Now the kids look bored here. My bear seems to like it though. Hahaha. I must admit, even the adults look bored.

But still, I gotta be thankful that I have a happy family. N a job. So well, dun grumble liao. Be thankful.

I still need to save the world. Be happy!