Overtime

YAWN....  its so late liao bun still in the office. Jus waiting.. waiting for the thing to be done.. its called a patch.. YAWN... jus changing a bunch of numbers...

so sleepy now... i basically got no energy to do my work now.. i rather sleep.... i know this can last quite long....

i simply dread to work now.. i know its not productive... i know i should be more than glad that i dun need to work tml. but yet... YAWN... I WANNA GO HOME!!!!!

Oh yah, my fren told me she's not expecting. dunno why i got a little disappointed. so damn kepo rite? i shouldnt interfere with pple's life.

i downloaded a pimple game... really stupid and disgusting.. but I LIKE.... hahaha... its about squeezing out all the pimples and pus. tearing off the outer layer of the scap, pressing out the blackheads... wah lau... i wonder if there's a game about shitting.

YAWN... I need my bed.... i know its jus 10pm. but i am really feeling like shit cos its like friday and i am gonna spend my night here?

whose fault issit? i dun care lah... i hate this phrase... jus fix it lah! who cares what happened long long ago? is'nt that counter productive? whats the point of asking about history? its really getting on my nerves.

i got nothing to blog liao and still pending IT to solve the shit.. wish me luck...

Forgetful bun

Bun getting old Liao.. Hiez.. Forgetful bun forgot to remove the keys from the lock. OPPS!

Then jus now I read my own blog I realize forgot to pray for my 2 preggies. Shit.

Anyway, I was half asleep while praying recently. V bad... I got too complacent. Yesterday eat not full. Went to sleep hungry. Lucky no hungry dreams. Haha..

Suspect someone is preg. Gut feel. She got symptoms mah.. Well, I wish I was younger sometimes. Everyone keeps nagging. So pressurizing! Talk is free. Bit a couple shouldn't b affected by external conversations. It destroys romance.

I forget my objectives in life sometimes. I keep getting influenced until I get confused. Work life bal? Religion? Happiness? But then again, wat makes me happy? Issit jus to b together wif my family n frens? Shopping at ntuc on weekends, jus jogging thru a park n feelin the adrenaline rush thru me? Or jus being alive?

I get tired easily. Health deteriorating. I dunno why. Hope I am not sick. Or maybe k passed me his sleepy genes. Shld I jus sleep more?? Getting fat leh..

Yawn. Getting bored wif my own blog. Zzzzz

I got out of my shitty mood today. My updates r like so temperamental I know. But it's good news rite?

I think those youngsters cheered me up a little. All the nonsense. Haha..

It's a strange thing tat I have nothing much to blog abt sine I decided to b happy.

2 new preggies to pray for. Looking forward to my gathering on sun. N the discussion meeting on sat. I m not good wif kids but it's great to see newborns n happy mommies.

I feel like having fun. Holiday mood Liao. Haha..

Going home to enjoy home cooked food by k. Lucky bun rite? Well, bun deserves to be doted. Bun shall not feel guilty abt it. Haha!

I gonna run more often. I feel stronger today. Muahaha.. Huat ah!

Mixed feelin bun

I feel shitty now. Jus feel useless. Gotta snap out of this gloomy mood.

Had a chat wif hui yesterday. Felt v energized yesterday. Slept v well.

I dunno why I am feeling blue now. I wonder how long I can last here. I wonder if I should leave before disaster strikes. But still I wanna b ard for them. My subs are kindof like my kids. U dun leave them when they need u rite? I kindof got close to the newbies n now I really think they deserve some guidance. Well. Sometimes I do really love my job. Part of it lah.

Went for a jog wif tokie. Ran quite fast cos got lots of anger inside bun. I really dunno what is going on sometimes..

U know I wonder if I am a good wife sometimes. Not that k complained but I dun really think I am a fantastic wife material. Not the loving motherly type. Well. Nobody is perfect.

Well I guess tats enough grumbling. I gotta stop feelin so shitty abt myself.

Tml is a new day. A new beginning. Bun is going to ENJOY IT.

Bun day

It's damn shitty at office. Spent the last half n hr bitching abt sone people. Haha

Not v productive but well, we do need some entertainment. One stupid idiot is enough to spoil the day.

Anyway, my presentation went well today. Went v smoothly. Long time never present liao, I talk also scared. Stress. So after the presentation I v good mood. Like finally got thing that went right.

I should learn to enjoy life. Haha.. I learning to let go. It's quite a success so far. Going ktv wif k this sun. Gonna sing my favorite glee songs. Yay!

Year end is coming. There is a part that we need to do. It's time of the year soon. I gotta work this out. Whack ah!!!! But I got no idea what to do!

Tomorrow fri Liao. Yippee!

Moody bun

Bun was supposed to go visit Jen today but unfortunately she fell sick. Hiez.. Was looking forward to today's gathering. But too bad lah.. Bun got no fate to meet them today.

Felt quite moody after I realize the gathering was cancelled. Bun can't see my frens tonight. They got last min work n stuff but everyone was committed to meet. But of cos the host was sick. I hope she will b fine. Pple who jus gave birth r vulnerable to infections n the weather sucks.

I told my colleague not to tok to me cos I was feelin v grumpy. Bad timing. I think he tot I got PMS.

This morning I took the lift with chairman. I didn't give a damn abt her cos I didnt feel like it. Stared at her, then looked away. As though she was a stranger. This is what happen when I can't be bothered if u can keep ur job or not. And yes, I dun give a shit if she cares or not. Cos she doesn't know me! She does her job by talking shit n I do mine, why shld we even bother abt each other? Haha.. So what if she's my boss? A boss who doesn't know me, who doesn't care?

bun revolution!!

Okok, i know I have been kindof rebellious recently but seriously lah, why should it matter so much if i sound like a bitch online?

im jus sick of comforming to all the norms. all the society's expectations. all the supposingly rules and regulations of being a "good" person. since this is MY journal, i shall jus be entitled to THINK freely. 
 i feel like i jus got released from the looney bin. haha... when i am happy i tend to be a bit crazy. when i am sad i am still crazy.. haha...

Im praying less and less these days.. gotta find myself some motivation..today bun was doing the tuabapao chant then dreaming all the way... aiyo.. so bad rite?? guilty... bun really gotta find something interesting to do. u know, bun got little disappointed cos sometimes pple with religions dun behave the way i think they should. i tot we all should love each other?? but well, i guess sometimes pple still like to sterotype. bad bad bad... but wats the point of lamenting on the evils of society? cannot change jus bochup lah... wats the point of feeling sad?

Went to watch Glee n got really motivated. the music is really so addictive. jus love it!!! I wish i could dance like tat.. i could jus picture my face on the screen doing all the moves. haha.. a little bun fantasy..

My first blog!

I Feel like i am reborn again. Well, I guess it's fated.I love to blog. Blogging is part of my life.

I am a changed bun. No more whining. But cursing will continue though. Ok lah, got little bit change.

I'm not gonna change my writing style cos I dun give a damn whether pple like me or not.

Cool rite? Aiyah nobody cares.

Here I am. My previous blog crashed so well. I decided to leave all the shit I wrote in the past and jus create one. No regrets. Who cares how I used to feel?

Ok, I went to a party n I think kids these days are so difficult to control. They are so smart n naughty. I wonder how I will treat my kids in the future. Next time then say lah.. Worry so much, in the end still die.

World peace. FREAKING WORLD PEACE!