home alone bun

bun is alone today. well, at least for the daytime (lucky i got district meeting tonight).

its kindof bored. especially when i am such a lazy bun. nuahing my precious saturday away.

its good to have free time, i guess i shouldnt grumble. good to not be in a mad rush. good to be away from work. but i do have work to do, except i am jus procrastinating.

haha..washing and well, doing some planning that i havent got the time to do so during work hours.

ate rice for breakfast so i wont need to be in a rush to eat lunch. haha.. i know, i know, i am so lazy. cant even be bothered to eat. i got eggs, potatoes and apples in the fridge. i guess that sums up my lunch if i am lazy.

super relaxed today. no mood to go out. feeling sleepy now. sleepy sleepy bun. but i know later i lie on the bed i cant sleep.

shall pamper myself and nua on the bed. haha.. well, must enjoy life.

aunt bun

well, i dunno what to say, mixed feelings. life is so unpredictable u know, so many ups and downs.

was pleasantly suprised when my boss spoke to me to increase my staff strength. good. i think i would really need some extra help. my team needs it. perfectly even more since i am thinking of leaving them.

after that i was saddened by the bad news that my aunt got cancer. yah, the C word is so scary. its kindof like a death sentence. as what most people would percieve it as. but i am still glad she would try. still strong life force. really, i guess she's kind of strong for the sake of the family, the family wants to be strong cos of her, u know, its a good cycle of motivation.

we still cling on to hope, still think that there may be a chance. everyone's praying for her now, hoping she doesnt give up, still stays strong and able to overcome it.

its a rare form of cancer. never heard of it but who knows? everyone, every body, every cell is different. she might just be the lucky one. we must think that way... i mean, wat else can we do but believe? i would like to think that since it hasn't spreaded to other organs yet there's still hope? i wonder why docs dun just cut off one of her lungs. i have heard of pple living with one lung. why not rite? but then again, im just a layman who only can guess.

there's nothing positive on the internet. maybe ignorance is bliss? we might as well focus on reading how people got cured?

i pray for the good fortune for her to meet a doc who makes the right decisions. somehow able to save her life. somehow, somehow...

meanwhile the people living that think they are suffering, please continue to enjoy ur life. dun work ur ass off. money is impt but not everything. last night i went to make a cup of hot milo and sipped it slowly togther with k, well, simple things can be enjoyable. meeting up with my friends.

i gotta start eating breakfast with daddy again.  i got lazy eversince i moved out. cos if i ate with dad, then what about k? u know lah, i got so many men to entertain. i got sunday free for him but he's just so onz about cycling. so its seriously not entirely my fault. excuses. i shld get him to learn to like the food near my place.. keke..

The day after bun can't sleep

It's raining today, great weather to sleep. Except I didn't sleep well last night. I wonder wat happen. My mind was a busy buzz the whole night. I kept thinking of stupid things last night. Dunno stressed abt wat. Or maybe Chinese tea has caffeine. I got lower tolerance after I quit coffee. Regular coffee drinking. Tossed n turned until I finally dozzed off for a moment, dreaming I went for some massage. I guess tats better than nothing. My restless body jus won't rest! This morn after eating my banana I felt the urge to shit. Wonderful feeling after u have constipation for a few days. Now my ass hurts after that big hard piece came out. Yawn. I'm so gonna fall asleep later. It's so cozy. Saw 2 birds this morn. I honestly dun find them cute. Those black minors. Horrible rite? Animals r meant for eating. I get torn in between those animal rights activitst. On one hand, I think u shldnt torture animals. But then I love meat. I hate birds. Dun really like the rest also. Well, I think I am mumbling rubbish. Not enough oxygen in my brain. Sleepy. Zzz

Quitter bun

This bloody blogsite so hard to use. Press here press there then finally can update. Update Liao got no spacing. Spent 1hr bitching away in the office abt how IT sucks. Life really sucks sometimes. But it's jus work. Glad to be able to help itch somehow. U know, I've been thinking, I really shld find something that I like to do n pursue it. I'm not enjoying my work at all! Half the time I think the management is talking crap. The other time ok lah, but at the end of the day I jus want my money. I dun think I really shld go on.I shld figure out how I can do something meaningful. To society, to the environment, to anything. It's not that my job is not good. It's just that the cookware politics kindof suck big time. Arrows keep flying. Btw, I heard they put chemicals into milk powder to boost the growth of the child's brain. That is GROSS! how can we do such thing? Am I too old fashioned to believe that we shouldn't do such things to the brain? Brain can be stimulated through thinking. I guess Singapore is such a competitive place. Honestly I dun feel like staying here. No wonder cousin went to Aussie. U only got life, why waste time here? I guess I jus gotta lug though my bond and I will be fine. I dun wanna work anymore. I gotta do something I like. Live life to the fullest. Money is not everything. I always knew I was superbun