It's gonna b the end of my confinement soon. Yay! But also means I gotta take care of all lil bear myself. No more Aunty to change nappy n wash him up. Gotta wash dishes :p
This morn lil bear shitted big time. Really BIG TIME! Nanny took off his pampers cos it was soiled. Then suddenly lil bear cringed n POOOOTTTT! It was a freaking big blast! Atomic bomb style. It shot from the bed to the floor n onto the nanny pants. The bed n floor all kena SAI!! OMG!!! Small bear but got power leh.. Lucky bun wasn't there. Or i wld be drenched in shit also. HENG
Anyway, it was totally disgusting but rather funny actually. Cos not I kena spray by sai. Haha. I sat there watching as the Aunty cleaned up the place. She had to change after tat. Bun was actually v sleepy cos it's 5am. But this really woke me up.
Bun jus went to drop some bombs at the shithole. Talk about sai then I stomachache suddenly. Damn shiok after the release. Haha. Must b the massage, increase circulation means more efficient waste removal system.
Btw, I'm down to 51kg. 2 more to go before hitting the 40s. Sound nicer lah.. At least i dun look tat big now. Then jus get rid of those flabby arms n perfect!
I guess the massage n the breastfeeding does help. Happy bun. I know I am vain, so wat?
But I think I need to exercise. I'm not as strong as before. Somehow my arms n legs feel weaker. My back feels weaker. But well, i can't ask for more.
Monday, 29 October 2012
Saturday, 27 October 2012
Updates
Yesterday little bear had many visitors. Luckily he was well behaved. He actually eat n sleep whole day. Fellow office buns came to visit n he slept soundly. Then Woke up jus in time to to greet them for a while without crying. Hee. Cos he was full n happy.
Cousin itch came to visit bun n little bear yesterday. Surprise visit. Hee.. So sweet rite? Itch baked a cake. Choc some more. Anyway, they didn't wanna come in cos of superstition so we jus stood outside n chatted. Well, better be safe then sorry rite? K carried lil bear n he slept thru like a good bear. K complained his arms ached after tat.
Btw, good news. My little bear grew bigger. I am quite sure he did. cos hes rather heavy now. Bb grows fast. Lucky he's outside me. Haha.
Did the massage today. Damn pain. Well, but I got a lot of bone prob. She hit jackpot for all my long labour n back problems. Well. It's easy with all her experience. I'm a little itchy from the jamu herbs actually. Or maybe it's the heat. Can't wait to take it off. Wah lau. Damn uncomfortable leh. The bind is so tight n I am sweating all over now. Hot n sticky bun now.
It's crazy sometimes. I wonder if it's worth it or not? But well, Its gonna be over soon.
My lil bear making noise again. He doesnt wanna sleep. Hiyah. I so smelly still wanna feed him. Haha..
Cousin itch came to visit bun n little bear yesterday. Surprise visit. Hee.. So sweet rite? Itch baked a cake. Choc some more. Anyway, they didn't wanna come in cos of superstition so we jus stood outside n chatted. Well, better be safe then sorry rite? K carried lil bear n he slept thru like a good bear. K complained his arms ached after tat.
Btw, good news. My little bear grew bigger. I am quite sure he did. cos hes rather heavy now. Bb grows fast. Lucky he's outside me. Haha.
Did the massage today. Damn pain. Well, but I got a lot of bone prob. She hit jackpot for all my long labour n back problems. Well. It's easy with all her experience. I'm a little itchy from the jamu herbs actually. Or maybe it's the heat. Can't wait to take it off. Wah lau. Damn uncomfortable leh. The bind is so tight n I am sweating all over now. Hot n sticky bun now.
It's crazy sometimes. I wonder if it's worth it or not? But well, Its gonna be over soon.
My lil bear making noise again. He doesnt wanna sleep. Hiyah. I so smelly still wanna feed him. Haha..
Tuesday, 23 October 2012
Week 3
Well, it's the going to be the end of 3rd week baby bear has been out if bun. He's kind of enjoying it I guess. Eat sleep cry play. Oh yes, he likes to play.
My little one likes to wriggle around n wave his hands frantically. I think he's trying to turn! Now he's fidgeting right next to me. Wiggle wiggle wiggle..
He's drinking 100ml of milk at one go now. Greedy pig. Now wonder hes getting heavy. Hahaha.. My milk factory needs to up supply for my little bear.
I feel like a cow sometimes. My job this month is basically to eat sleep n feed little bear. Need to lie down on my back to take the pressure off my spine. Prevent backache. Somehow my back does get tired easily. Sit too long my back does ache.
Sometimes I get fed up with him when he falls asleep while drinking. Bloody hell. 5min of sucking u fall asleep! A moment ago u were crying for milk. Going nuts if u keep doing this every half hr!!! Noti bear rite? But well, wat to do? He's still only 2 weeks old. Bun jus needs to be patient.
I v lazy to organize his 1mth party. Damn sian to plan. Haha.. U know lah. Bun dun like planning events. Settled the relatives. Now need to plan for frens. But I am in such a slack mood tat I dun feel like doing anything.
Jus did my prayers. Pray that lil bear will be a good bear. Grow up to be a good big bear. Healthy n sensible. Dun give me trouble.
My little one likes to wriggle around n wave his hands frantically. I think he's trying to turn! Now he's fidgeting right next to me. Wiggle wiggle wiggle..
He's drinking 100ml of milk at one go now. Greedy pig. Now wonder hes getting heavy. Hahaha.. My milk factory needs to up supply for my little bear.
I feel like a cow sometimes. My job this month is basically to eat sleep n feed little bear. Need to lie down on my back to take the pressure off my spine. Prevent backache. Somehow my back does get tired easily. Sit too long my back does ache.
Sometimes I get fed up with him when he falls asleep while drinking. Bloody hell. 5min of sucking u fall asleep! A moment ago u were crying for milk. Going nuts if u keep doing this every half hr!!! Noti bear rite? But well, wat to do? He's still only 2 weeks old. Bun jus needs to be patient.
I v lazy to organize his 1mth party. Damn sian to plan. Haha.. U know lah. Bun dun like planning events. Settled the relatives. Now need to plan for frens. But I am in such a slack mood tat I dun feel like doing anything.
Jus did my prayers. Pray that lil bear will be a good bear. Grow up to be a good big bear. Healthy n sensible. Dun give me trouble.
Tuesday, 16 October 2012
Sleeping lil bear
It's all peace n quiet now. My lil bear is sleeping after a feed. Hope he naps longer! But I only got a few min of peace left. Cos the next feed is comming.
He's really cute when he's all quiet n jus looking at u. Or when he's jus sleeping in my arms. A little cuddly cute bundle. But when he gets grouchy it's super shack. Terrifying little terrorist!
My arms n back ache when I carry him, but well, it's part of training. I guess I'll jus get used to the weight. N increased weight!
I managed to lose another 4 kg after confinement started. Still 54, target to loose another 4 this mth. Although I can't see how I'm supposed to do that with the nanny stuffing me full of herbs n tonics, but me sweating like crazy all the time. I wonder if I'll put back the kgs I lost after confinement.
I'm still getting used to lil bear. Each feed we both struggle until we r all perspiring like crazy. Lil bear panting n bun totally exhausted. No wonder they say breastfeed can slim down! It truly is an art.
Yawn. Shall take a power nap before lil bear wakes up again
He's really cute when he's all quiet n jus looking at u. Or when he's jus sleeping in my arms. A little cuddly cute bundle. But when he gets grouchy it's super shack. Terrifying little terrorist!
My arms n back ache when I carry him, but well, it's part of training. I guess I'll jus get used to the weight. N increased weight!
I managed to lose another 4 kg after confinement started. Still 54, target to loose another 4 this mth. Although I can't see how I'm supposed to do that with the nanny stuffing me full of herbs n tonics, but me sweating like crazy all the time. I wonder if I'll put back the kgs I lost after confinement.
I'm still getting used to lil bear. Each feed we both struggle until we r all perspiring like crazy. Lil bear panting n bun totally exhausted. No wonder they say breastfeed can slim down! It truly is an art.
Yawn. Shall take a power nap before lil bear wakes up again
Monday, 15 October 2012
Little bear
Its been 11days since i gave birth to My cute little bundle of joy.
Now he's a bigger bundle. A bigger n stronger bear. I must have drank too much coffee during my pregnancy. Little bear keeps staying awake even after feeding. Meanwhile mummy bun jus continues to feed him like a cow. Thankfully I have enough supply.
I guess I got a lot to learn. Expected lah. I can't really handle him well. Need the help of nanny n my mummy. After every feed I am exhausted cos he struggles n cries n I can't figure out why actually. K wanted to feed him formula so bun won't b so tired but since got the nanny why not rite? Jus let her carry the bb to me as and when he needs feeding lah. At least he has one full mth of nutritious bun milk.
The nanny is of great help although she's kindof irritating sometimes. Keep telling me grandmother methods that bun doesn't give a shit abt.
Bun fell into a depression after the 6day of confinement. The nanny pissed me off real bad when she told my mom to buy stout to bathe baby bear. We already told her we didn't want to use this method but she insisted. Some more ask me jus dun tell k can Liao. Bun lost my cool n snatched the stout n went to the room and slammed the drawer. Hmmm.. I didn't know I was so fierce. But anyway, I was really pissed. Then I started to feel sticky n dirty n wanted to stop my unhappy confinement. My mood hit rock bottom n the tears jus flowed like a tap. Misery n self pity jus set in. I couldn't stop the negative tots. It jus kept clouding my little brain, cluttering my head with anger n despair. it's jus a small issue but I couldn't stop feeling sad. I jus couldn't.
Once again I was blessed with a great family. My mummy decided to let me take my first bath, k told me I shld stop breastfeeding cos it can cause depression. Be even wanted to bring me out of the house for a walk. Cos he thinks the whole confinement theory is CRAP. Well, tats how I took my first bath. U know, it's funny, after I bathed, although in that strange herbal water, I felt damn shiok. As though I went to the jungle to camp for 7days n finally had my first bath. instant recovery.
I guess I still find it weird to have a stranger in the house. Bun is a spoilt bun maybe? K bought a heartshaped cake to cheer bun up. hee.. So sweet..
Bun cheered up on the next day. Have been breaking lots of confinement law these few days. Cos I DUN GIVE A DAMN SHIT. Yah. Call me spoilt. I really think it's utter rubbish. So what if I suffer from aches n pain when I grow old. How long can I live in the first place? Why shld I waste my precious youth suffering in something that I DUN BELIEVE IN?
I'm stonger now. I mean it's jus some gossip n basically I know who's the boss. I have control over things. Over my life that is.
I'm still doing hands on training with lil bear. He's really a terror sometimes. Struggling n refusing to sleep. Only slightly over a week old n he's capable of irritating the shit out if us. Haha. Sleepless nights n restless days.
Well, I guess tats part and parcel of being a mummy bun.
Now he's a bigger bundle. A bigger n stronger bear. I must have drank too much coffee during my pregnancy. Little bear keeps staying awake even after feeding. Meanwhile mummy bun jus continues to feed him like a cow. Thankfully I have enough supply.
I guess I got a lot to learn. Expected lah. I can't really handle him well. Need the help of nanny n my mummy. After every feed I am exhausted cos he struggles n cries n I can't figure out why actually. K wanted to feed him formula so bun won't b so tired but since got the nanny why not rite? Jus let her carry the bb to me as and when he needs feeding lah. At least he has one full mth of nutritious bun milk.
The nanny is of great help although she's kindof irritating sometimes. Keep telling me grandmother methods that bun doesn't give a shit abt.
Bun fell into a depression after the 6day of confinement. The nanny pissed me off real bad when she told my mom to buy stout to bathe baby bear. We already told her we didn't want to use this method but she insisted. Some more ask me jus dun tell k can Liao. Bun lost my cool n snatched the stout n went to the room and slammed the drawer. Hmmm.. I didn't know I was so fierce. But anyway, I was really pissed. Then I started to feel sticky n dirty n wanted to stop my unhappy confinement. My mood hit rock bottom n the tears jus flowed like a tap. Misery n self pity jus set in. I couldn't stop the negative tots. It jus kept clouding my little brain, cluttering my head with anger n despair. it's jus a small issue but I couldn't stop feeling sad. I jus couldn't.
Once again I was blessed with a great family. My mummy decided to let me take my first bath, k told me I shld stop breastfeeding cos it can cause depression. Be even wanted to bring me out of the house for a walk. Cos he thinks the whole confinement theory is CRAP. Well, tats how I took my first bath. U know, it's funny, after I bathed, although in that strange herbal water, I felt damn shiok. As though I went to the jungle to camp for 7days n finally had my first bath. instant recovery.
I guess I still find it weird to have a stranger in the house. Bun is a spoilt bun maybe? K bought a heartshaped cake to cheer bun up. hee.. So sweet..
Bun cheered up on the next day. Have been breaking lots of confinement law these few days. Cos I DUN GIVE A DAMN SHIT. Yah. Call me spoilt. I really think it's utter rubbish. So what if I suffer from aches n pain when I grow old. How long can I live in the first place? Why shld I waste my precious youth suffering in something that I DUN BELIEVE IN?
I'm stonger now. I mean it's jus some gossip n basically I know who's the boss. I have control over things. Over my life that is.
I'm still doing hands on training with lil bear. He's really a terror sometimes. Struggling n refusing to sleep. Only slightly over a week old n he's capable of irritating the shit out if us. Haha. Sleepless nights n restless days.
Well, I guess tats part and parcel of being a mummy bun.
Tuesday, 9 October 2012
Little bear's birth
Finally the day to take lil bear cAme! Excited mummy bun n daddy bear went to the hospital at 6am.
At 7pm, Nurse inserted a pill into me below to induce lil bear. I almost died when she did that! Damn pain n it feels damn invading! I mean like, she kept telling me I need to relax but how to???? How to relax when someone puts their fingers inside u?? OMG. I really hate it when they do this. Can't they use a pincer or something? if the first inducement doesn't work she would have to put in another pill. So I prayed v hard that she won't have to do this again.
Thankfully It worked!!! They gave me breakfast n I ate everything but regretted shortly. They sent me up to the ward to rest. Bun started to feel nausea n went went to shit 3 times. Btw its a Common symptom of labor.
Contractions became more frequent n bun started to feel crammy. Still bearable at this moment.
Then suddenly I heard a POP sound! Water gushed out like crazy. On the bed, floor.. Lucky i was in hospital lor! Super unglam lor! My water broke!! Lucky I wasn't in the office or outside when it happen.
I was rushed to the delivery room. N they put all the tubes over me. N the doc on duty put her freaking fingers INSIDE me again!! WT**** I really wanted to yell out but held back! Why must they keep doing that? Can't they jus use one of those mini cameras? N stop asking me to relax when it's not possible!
Anyway, after tat I decided to take the infamous epidural. Secretly took 2 bites of snickers choc to prepare for the long marathon first. Anyway, the anastist took 1hr to come. I bet it's cos I asked at 12, lunchtime. He came at 1plus. Tried the deep breathing and gas meanwhile.
Finally he came and bun was scared but excited. He poked the life threatening instrument inside me n I jus relaxed. MIRACLE! The pain was gone n I had a painless labour. Muahaha.. Could even play with my Hp. Everything was numb, and I couldnt really feel my legs. I couldn't even feel the dialation check n the insertion of the urine tube into me! I was totally thankful or that.
The excitement began at the last part. 630 the nurse checked my dilation. A pain free check this time. I was so relaxed my dilation reached 10cm already! Muahahaha..
Doc say bb will drop n pushing will be easier if I waited till ard 830. Meanwhile the midwife practiced with me how to push out lil beAr. She told me to think of shitting n I did managed to push him more out a little. It was getting uncomfortable cos started to feel a bit of contractions.
The last hr of labor was ultimate CHAOS. I kept shivering cos they turned off the epidural. Withdrawal symptoms started as the drug wore off. Puked out the gastric juice inside me. I knew I had to get bear out before there was no painkillers left. Time was running out.
There were 2 midwifes, k supporting my back n the doc squeezed my tummy with each contraction. PUSH!!!! bun HUFFED n PUFFED with each contraction. PUSHHHH!!!! PUFF PUFF PUFF. Omg, lil bear was still stuck n bun was exhausted. Doc say try some more if not he will use forcep to pull lil bear out. Which honestly I was so tired I didn't mind. Then the next wave came n then with all my might I squeezed my Lower stomach n lil bear literally FLEW out of me. U know kindof like when u LS?
What a relief! The next thing I heard was lil bear crying. Phew. Music! Doc stitched me up I could feel the string n needle passing thru me. Felt like forever.
Strangely i suffer more after birth. It was really HELL. With no more epidural, j could feel the cramps of the uterus contracting. It's not as bad as labour pain but kindof like menstrual cramps. K made all the calls n took pictures as bun lay there whining in pain. Bun threw up twice n had painkillers stuffed up my ass to stop the discomfort. It was at least 3hrs before everything went back to normal. Or at least it felt that long. I didn't even wanna get off the bed to sit on the wheelchair to be transferred up to my ward. After tat I continued to be sore below. And omg, I was totally had no energy to move myself. I felt like a weak jelly bun.
Lucky got k beside me. Told him how proud of him I was. Brave n showed me tender loving care when I needed him most.
Glad it's over. Really v tramatic experience. Having a sore bottom but I guess it's nothing compared to a c-section cut. Its kindof like piles I guess. Shall be thankful n not complain abt that few stitches.
The night still haunts me but bun is still grateful it went smoothly. Now need to go on to the next stage. Confinement plus taking care of little bear. A new chapter of my life.
At 7pm, Nurse inserted a pill into me below to induce lil bear. I almost died when she did that! Damn pain n it feels damn invading! I mean like, she kept telling me I need to relax but how to???? How to relax when someone puts their fingers inside u?? OMG. I really hate it when they do this. Can't they use a pincer or something? if the first inducement doesn't work she would have to put in another pill. So I prayed v hard that she won't have to do this again.
Thankfully It worked!!! They gave me breakfast n I ate everything but regretted shortly. They sent me up to the ward to rest. Bun started to feel nausea n went went to shit 3 times. Btw its a Common symptom of labor.
Contractions became more frequent n bun started to feel crammy. Still bearable at this moment.
Then suddenly I heard a POP sound! Water gushed out like crazy. On the bed, floor.. Lucky i was in hospital lor! Super unglam lor! My water broke!! Lucky I wasn't in the office or outside when it happen.
I was rushed to the delivery room. N they put all the tubes over me. N the doc on duty put her freaking fingers INSIDE me again!! WT**** I really wanted to yell out but held back! Why must they keep doing that? Can't they jus use one of those mini cameras? N stop asking me to relax when it's not possible!
Anyway, after tat I decided to take the infamous epidural. Secretly took 2 bites of snickers choc to prepare for the long marathon first. Anyway, the anastist took 1hr to come. I bet it's cos I asked at 12, lunchtime. He came at 1plus. Tried the deep breathing and gas meanwhile.
Finally he came and bun was scared but excited. He poked the life threatening instrument inside me n I jus relaxed. MIRACLE! The pain was gone n I had a painless labour. Muahaha.. Could even play with my Hp. Everything was numb, and I couldnt really feel my legs. I couldn't even feel the dialation check n the insertion of the urine tube into me! I was totally thankful or that.
The excitement began at the last part. 630 the nurse checked my dilation. A pain free check this time. I was so relaxed my dilation reached 10cm already! Muahahaha..
Doc say bb will drop n pushing will be easier if I waited till ard 830. Meanwhile the midwife practiced with me how to push out lil beAr. She told me to think of shitting n I did managed to push him more out a little. It was getting uncomfortable cos started to feel a bit of contractions.
The last hr of labor was ultimate CHAOS. I kept shivering cos they turned off the epidural. Withdrawal symptoms started as the drug wore off. Puked out the gastric juice inside me. I knew I had to get bear out before there was no painkillers left. Time was running out.
There were 2 midwifes, k supporting my back n the doc squeezed my tummy with each contraction. PUSH!!!! bun HUFFED n PUFFED with each contraction. PUSHHHH!!!! PUFF PUFF PUFF. Omg, lil bear was still stuck n bun was exhausted. Doc say try some more if not he will use forcep to pull lil bear out. Which honestly I was so tired I didn't mind. Then the next wave came n then with all my might I squeezed my Lower stomach n lil bear literally FLEW out of me. U know kindof like when u LS?
What a relief! The next thing I heard was lil bear crying. Phew. Music! Doc stitched me up I could feel the string n needle passing thru me. Felt like forever.
Strangely i suffer more after birth. It was really HELL. With no more epidural, j could feel the cramps of the uterus contracting. It's not as bad as labour pain but kindof like menstrual cramps. K made all the calls n took pictures as bun lay there whining in pain. Bun threw up twice n had painkillers stuffed up my ass to stop the discomfort. It was at least 3hrs before everything went back to normal. Or at least it felt that long. I didn't even wanna get off the bed to sit on the wheelchair to be transferred up to my ward. After tat I continued to be sore below. And omg, I was totally had no energy to move myself. I felt like a weak jelly bun.
Lucky got k beside me. Told him how proud of him I was. Brave n showed me tender loving care when I needed him most.
Glad it's over. Really v tramatic experience. Having a sore bottom but I guess it's nothing compared to a c-section cut. Its kindof like piles I guess. Shall be thankful n not complain abt that few stitches.
The night still haunts me but bun is still grateful it went smoothly. Now need to go on to the next stage. Confinement plus taking care of little bear. A new chapter of my life.
Wednesday, 3 October 2012
My last day
Today I am 39weeks n 6 days preg. my last day with bb bear inside me!
Enjoyed the day lazing ard at home. Its not v fantastic but well, I can't really move ard much. Might as well b contented.
Doc is gonna induce me tml. Scary. I'll be in labour! Thousands of tots crossed my mind yesterday when he told me my cervix is not ready. What if its unsuccessful? Do I really have to go thru c section? I tot of it saddened me.
But I have decided to look on the bright side. I will b strong. With so many pple looking out for bun n cheering bun on, I am confident lil bear will cooperate.
Btw, my waistline ballooned to 42inches n my weight 62.5kg! Today is the last day of being a fat bun. Not missing my bump though. Hahha.. Looking forward to slim down.
Lil bear lil bear come out quick! Mummy can't wait to see u! Hugs n kisses!
Shall go drink some coconut juice. Hee.. I love coconut. Gonna miss it.
Enjoyed the day lazing ard at home. Its not v fantastic but well, I can't really move ard much. Might as well b contented.
Doc is gonna induce me tml. Scary. I'll be in labour! Thousands of tots crossed my mind yesterday when he told me my cervix is not ready. What if its unsuccessful? Do I really have to go thru c section? I tot of it saddened me.
But I have decided to look on the bright side. I will b strong. With so many pple looking out for bun n cheering bun on, I am confident lil bear will cooperate.
Btw, my waistline ballooned to 42inches n my weight 62.5kg! Today is the last day of being a fat bun. Not missing my bump though. Hahha.. Looking forward to slim down.
Lil bear lil bear come out quick! Mummy can't wait to see u! Hugs n kisses!
Shall go drink some coconut juice. Hee.. I love coconut. Gonna miss it.
Monday, 1 October 2012
No little bear today
Another day passed n my little bear is still inside me. Although he kicked me like mad today. I dunno what's wrong with him.
Me like a kiasu parent rushing him to get out. Haha.. But really he was such a noti bear today. Won't even let me have a moment of peace.
Kick kick kickity PUNCH!! Harden! STRETCH!!!
Wah lau! So damn bloody uncomfortable lor! I wonder if bear is ok. Apparently he all squashed up inside.
Little bear little bear, come out n stretch ur legs! I promise to hug u tightly!
He did calm down a bit after I went downstairs for a walk dispite my swollen feet n heavy tummy.
Oh yah, I also ate some choc ice cream. Hee.. Happy bun with happy bear inside me. He finally decided to sleep. I wonder for how long though...
Me like a kiasu parent rushing him to get out. Haha.. But really he was such a noti bear today. Won't even let me have a moment of peace.
Kick kick kickity PUNCH!! Harden! STRETCH!!!
Wah lau! So damn bloody uncomfortable lor! I wonder if bear is ok. Apparently he all squashed up inside.
Little bear little bear, come out n stretch ur legs! I promise to hug u tightly!
He did calm down a bit after I went downstairs for a walk dispite my swollen feet n heavy tummy.
Oh yah, I also ate some choc ice cream. Hee.. Happy bun with happy bear inside me. He finally decided to sleep. I wonder for how long though...
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