Today I decided not to drink kopi. Drank a cup of green tea instead. Haha.. Thankfully I didn't have a headache. Jus felt very very tired... Super shack... I wonder how to withstand it at work?
My MIL came to visit us. Haha.. So paiseh bun dun really bring little bear out so we end up she come n visit us instead.
K caught the flu bug so bun has less one helper. Nobody to pat big bun to sleep :( ok, I know I am childish. But it feels weird sleeping in separate rooms. I have to tolerate it during weekdays, now he off I also have to look after lil bear all by myself. Sian.
Sleepy.. Now waiting for lil bear to wake up so I can bottle feed him and zzzz.. Watching tat the mama awards. Dun like the songs. So wanna zzz
Friday, 30 November 2012
Sunday, 25 November 2012
Dreamy bun
Sometimes I wonder if I am dreaming. I wonder if I really got married and had a baby. Haha.. Sounds weird rite? Too much tv.. Haha. Or rather, I'm always so dreamy.
It's difficult to get lil bear to sleep. So tough u know.. Opps. Shall stop grumbling.
Luckily daddy managed to coax him to sleep so we all can take a break. I wonder how long it will last.
Bun feeling itchy , dunno why. Poor little bear. Bun knocked his head when I put him down on the rocker today. Opps! Guilty. Lucky it wasn't hard. He jus cried for a minute. Heng.
I hate it when he latches on for five min n sleeps. Can't feed him, he gets hungry, then bun has to keep feeding. Waste time n effort. Lucky he likes the bottle now.
Sleepy now. This morn lil bear disturb me from 3am onwards. Noisy bear. Sleep also must yell once in a while.
Dunno what to write already. Byee
It's difficult to get lil bear to sleep. So tough u know.. Opps. Shall stop grumbling.
Luckily daddy managed to coax him to sleep so we all can take a break. I wonder how long it will last.
Bun feeling itchy , dunno why. Poor little bear. Bun knocked his head when I put him down on the rocker today. Opps! Guilty. Lucky it wasn't hard. He jus cried for a minute. Heng.
I hate it when he latches on for five min n sleeps. Can't feed him, he gets hungry, then bun has to keep feeding. Waste time n effort. Lucky he likes the bottle now.
Sleepy now. This morn lil bear disturb me from 3am onwards. Noisy bear. Sleep also must yell once in a while.
Dunno what to write already. Byee
Thursday, 22 November 2012
Grooming little bear
Cut lil bear's nails jus now and he screamed his head off! He started to cry and as bun desperately tried to clip his nails. Then at the final nail, i pulled his thumb out and clipped. He yelled really loud and kept on yelling and yelling as though I clipped his finger off!! Scared the SHIT out of me! Thankfully I checked his hands and he wasn't hurt. No blood. Jus sweat and tears.
My poor little bear got so traumatized that he continued to sniff even in his sleep while sucking the pacifier. Bun also v traumatized. Shall not cut his nails for the time being.. So scary.. Maybe next month!
Those tiny fingers are so delicate and soft. So soft n silky skin. How can I bear to hurt him?
I have to dig his nose too. Those 2 little holes kindof need cleaning. Poke too deep and who knows what I can damage! ESP when he keeps moving. Its really challenging! Tat day I think I triggered him n he kept sneezing. Then a GIGANTIC NOSE SHIT came out!! It was bigger than his nostril lor!! I was shocked such a big piece could fit in! I wonder if his breathing was disturbed?
I wonder if I bring him to cut hair will he yell?
So far he's quite cooperative when it comes to bathing. Except he urine on bun yesterday before I put him into the tub. Got me all wet. I remember the first time I bathed him I hug him so tight until I got wet as well. Haha. So embarrassing! Well, at least I didn't drop him.
Little bear is asleep now. Clean and well groomed. Mummy swaddled him so he tot someone hug him. BABIES ARE SO GULLIBLE. Good la. I love it when he sleeps. Peace n quiet. Hope he's a sleepy bear next time.
My poor little bear got so traumatized that he continued to sniff even in his sleep while sucking the pacifier. Bun also v traumatized. Shall not cut his nails for the time being.. So scary.. Maybe next month!
Those tiny fingers are so delicate and soft. So soft n silky skin. How can I bear to hurt him?
I have to dig his nose too. Those 2 little holes kindof need cleaning. Poke too deep and who knows what I can damage! ESP when he keeps moving. Its really challenging! Tat day I think I triggered him n he kept sneezing. Then a GIGANTIC NOSE SHIT came out!! It was bigger than his nostril lor!! I was shocked such a big piece could fit in! I wonder if his breathing was disturbed?
I wonder if I bring him to cut hair will he yell?
So far he's quite cooperative when it comes to bathing. Except he urine on bun yesterday before I put him into the tub. Got me all wet. I remember the first time I bathed him I hug him so tight until I got wet as well. Haha. So embarrassing! Well, at least I didn't drop him.
Little bear is asleep now. Clean and well groomed. Mummy swaddled him so he tot someone hug him. BABIES ARE SO GULLIBLE. Good la. I love it when he sleeps. Peace n quiet. Hope he's a sleepy bear next time.
Sunday, 18 November 2012
Fat bun
I am still 50kg. 5kg off my normal weight. I know I shldnt be so impatient but I am so eager to go back to the small bun. Wonder wat exercise I shld do?
Swimming will spoil my skin n hair, jogging will jiggle my womb, weights will lead to muscles. Still a fat bun. Gotta work on my image. Me wanna be a pretty mummy. Hiak hiak..
Tats the prob with staying at home. Keep thinking of super unproductive stuff. I can't seem to think abt less bimbotic stuff.
One night I felt lonely all of a sudden. Me n lil bear sleeping alone. Bun alone to handle and feed lil bear. While k gets to sleep the whole night thru. Kind of envious leh.. I wanted to switch to formula milk almost immediately. ESP when lil bear refused to sleep on the bed after the 4am feed.
I think I need to work, or else my brain cells are dying. Not that I always think abt work but some stress will activate my grey matter. And I can get some cash, pay for my Hse, blah blah blah.
Shall jus enjoy my holiday for the time being. Brain lazy. Lazy to think.
Swimming will spoil my skin n hair, jogging will jiggle my womb, weights will lead to muscles. Still a fat bun. Gotta work on my image. Me wanna be a pretty mummy. Hiak hiak..
Tats the prob with staying at home. Keep thinking of super unproductive stuff. I can't seem to think abt less bimbotic stuff.
One night I felt lonely all of a sudden. Me n lil bear sleeping alone. Bun alone to handle and feed lil bear. While k gets to sleep the whole night thru. Kind of envious leh.. I wanted to switch to formula milk almost immediately. ESP when lil bear refused to sleep on the bed after the 4am feed.
I think I need to work, or else my brain cells are dying. Not that I always think abt work but some stress will activate my grey matter. And I can get some cash, pay for my Hse, blah blah blah.
Shall jus enjoy my holiday for the time being. Brain lazy. Lazy to think.
Saturday, 17 November 2012
Post natal check
Went to the hospital for a post natal check. Feels so strange going back again. I feel pregnant again. Haha..
Did a papsmear test. I wonder for wat? But well, good lah. Or I won't have done one. So damn bloody scared the doc would put his fingers inside me. Super tensed. Luckily he didn't. He cracked a joke n did the procedure as though he was making coffee! I have to admit, although I dun really like him, he was really good. It didnt hurt at all!
He told me "see u again! Next time :)" but I dun think I wanna see him actually. If I have another one I wanna try out a private hospital. See wats the diff.
Sometimes I forget I got preg before. I forget I have a son! GASP! But not for long lah. Cos the reality is i have to look after him, bear with him at night, and do the mummy stuff.
I think I forget how to work. Me getting comfortable at home. I haven been so relaxed for a long time. A long long while.. I dun feel like going back. I forget the concept of money. What it's used for? Haven bought anything for myself. Lil bear is the only one I think abt these days.
Seriously I live by the day. I think my brain cells all died cos I seldom use them. Yawn. Zzzz time!
Did a papsmear test. I wonder for wat? But well, good lah. Or I won't have done one. So damn bloody scared the doc would put his fingers inside me. Super tensed. Luckily he didn't. He cracked a joke n did the procedure as though he was making coffee! I have to admit, although I dun really like him, he was really good. It didnt hurt at all!
He told me "see u again! Next time :)" but I dun think I wanna see him actually. If I have another one I wanna try out a private hospital. See wats the diff.
Sometimes I forget I got preg before. I forget I have a son! GASP! But not for long lah. Cos the reality is i have to look after him, bear with him at night, and do the mummy stuff.
I think I forget how to work. Me getting comfortable at home. I haven been so relaxed for a long time. A long long while.. I dun feel like going back. I forget the concept of money. What it's used for? Haven bought anything for myself. Lil bear is the only one I think abt these days.
Seriously I live by the day. I think my brain cells all died cos I seldom use them. Yawn. Zzzz time!
Monday, 12 November 2012
Relieved bun
The fact that I am blogging again shows tat I am super boliao. I dun feel like doing anything. Sleepy.
Well, lil bear is sleeping now so no more noisy bear. Sleeping bear equals happy bun. My mom also relieved when lil bear eats n sleeps well. Lil bear sometimes drive us nuts trying to figure out what he wants. Haha. Now he's all cuddled up into one lil sleepy bundle.
Sometimes I wonder wats it like to have 2 bears at a go. Haha. Siao. But then again, thinking of going thru preggies n getting fat again really puts me off.
Today bun tried my best not to carry him. Feels strange. But well, I think it's for the best.
Everyday is a new challenge. It's amazing to watch him grow. Big n strong. He's got 40 weeks of bun nutrition. Now still on bun milk diet. Better be strong.
Maybe I shld quit my job. Dun like to work anyway. Can't travel, can't go out much, won't spend so much bah. No guts to quit tats all. See how first. Next yr then say.
Well, lil bear is sleeping now so no more noisy bear. Sleeping bear equals happy bun. My mom also relieved when lil bear eats n sleeps well. Lil bear sometimes drive us nuts trying to figure out what he wants. Haha. Now he's all cuddled up into one lil sleepy bundle.
Sometimes I wonder wats it like to have 2 bears at a go. Haha. Siao. But then again, thinking of going thru preggies n getting fat again really puts me off.
Today bun tried my best not to carry him. Feels strange. But well, I think it's for the best.
Everyday is a new challenge. It's amazing to watch him grow. Big n strong. He's got 40 weeks of bun nutrition. Now still on bun milk diet. Better be strong.
Maybe I shld quit my job. Dun like to work anyway. Can't travel, can't go out much, won't spend so much bah. No guts to quit tats all. See how first. Next yr then say.
Saturday, 10 November 2012
Small victory
I got a bear with a ferocious temper. Yelling non stop when I stuff the bottle into his mouth jus now.
I dunno what happen. I think he wasn't in the mood to eat. Not desperate enough to bow down to his last choice. Or could he have figured out my trick?
I managed to bottle feed him 2 times today. Both he was half asleep n hungry. I guess I kindof confused him by putting him on the breastfeeding cushion. He's a one month old baby, can't lose to him rite?? Haha. DUMBO.
Okok I shldnt say such things abt my own bear. But I really felt damn great when I tricked him. Shld celebrate each small victory. N stop harping on failures. wonder if I will achieve success again later?
Last night he was so fidgety he couldn't sleep till 11. bun was exhausted! I kept carrying n letting him latch on until i was so pissed off with him! Damn sian leh! It's not fun at all! Irritating bear. But well, still mummy's darling.
Yawn. Gotta learn his pattern slowly.
I dunno what happen. I think he wasn't in the mood to eat. Not desperate enough to bow down to his last choice. Or could he have figured out my trick?
I managed to bottle feed him 2 times today. Both he was half asleep n hungry. I guess I kindof confused him by putting him on the breastfeeding cushion. He's a one month old baby, can't lose to him rite?? Haha. DUMBO.
Okok I shldnt say such things abt my own bear. But I really felt damn great when I tricked him. Shld celebrate each small victory. N stop harping on failures. wonder if I will achieve success again later?
Last night he was so fidgety he couldn't sleep till 11. bun was exhausted! I kept carrying n letting him latch on until i was so pissed off with him! Damn sian leh! It's not fun at all! Irritating bear. But well, still mummy's darling.
Yawn. Gotta learn his pattern slowly.
Friday, 9 November 2012
I dun like bottles!!!
OMG. my little bear is quite a terrorist.
He refuses to drink bottle milk. He yells at the top of his voice whenever fed. It's not good. Bad bad bad. BAD BEAR.
bun got no patience sometimes. He was doing fine suddenly after a few days of yelling. Jus When I tot hes finally accepting the bottle, he relapsed. I need a miracle! Help!!
My patience is wearing off. I'm tired. Tired but I have to sacrifice. Sometimes I wonder if I shld continue to try. I mean, formula can't be that bad rite? But with his brAins expanding, I really dun know whats gonna happen.
Well, sleepy bun grumbles are boring.
Maybe I shldnt complain. I chose to do this the hard way. I know its gonna be tough.
Sleep early. Tml is another day ahead. Challenging. must make it. Chiong ah!
Zzzzzzzz
He refuses to drink bottle milk. He yells at the top of his voice whenever fed. It's not good. Bad bad bad. BAD BEAR.
bun got no patience sometimes. He was doing fine suddenly after a few days of yelling. Jus When I tot hes finally accepting the bottle, he relapsed. I need a miracle! Help!!
My patience is wearing off. I'm tired. Tired but I have to sacrifice. Sometimes I wonder if I shld continue to try. I mean, formula can't be that bad rite? But with his brAins expanding, I really dun know whats gonna happen.
Well, sleepy bun grumbles are boring.
Maybe I shldnt complain. I chose to do this the hard way. I know its gonna be tough.
Sleep early. Tml is another day ahead. Challenging. must make it. Chiong ah!
Zzzzzzzz
Monday, 5 November 2012
One mth old lil bear
My little bear is one mth old! Actually he turned a mth old on the 4 nov but I was too tired to blog.
We got ready early in the morn, bun fed him n my mummy bathed him. We dressed him up in a cute Outfit. The food came on time n looked good. Then the party started. Most of my guests turned up n the food was jus enough, with some leftovers. It was a great party!
Lil bear was well behaved thruout. Cos got pple carry him mah. So he v happy. V v happy. Happy bear is a good bear. He managed to last a bit longer without milk cos he was too happy. Then he threw up on bun when he drank too much. So Bun had to change. Lucky he didn't make much noise after that.
Everyone loved little bear. He's the star after all. He got so many presents until bun also paiseh. There were so many friends n relatives wanting to carry little bear.
I'm so glad we didn't have 3 parties. Wah lau.. I was flat on the sofa at the end of the party. Lousy rite? I only walk ard the house. Never do any preparation also dunno why so exhausted. Super shack bun. Maybe bun rested too much. Leg tired, hand tired, back tired. Bun knocked out at 9pm after dinner. Sleepy sleepy sleepy. Yawn.
I guess I gotta work on my stamina
We got ready early in the morn, bun fed him n my mummy bathed him. We dressed him up in a cute Outfit. The food came on time n looked good. Then the party started. Most of my guests turned up n the food was jus enough, with some leftovers. It was a great party!
Lil bear was well behaved thruout. Cos got pple carry him mah. So he v happy. V v happy. Happy bear is a good bear. He managed to last a bit longer without milk cos he was too happy. Then he threw up on bun when he drank too much. So Bun had to change. Lucky he didn't make much noise after that.
Everyone loved little bear. He's the star after all. He got so many presents until bun also paiseh. There were so many friends n relatives wanting to carry little bear.
I'm so glad we didn't have 3 parties. Wah lau.. I was flat on the sofa at the end of the party. Lousy rite? I only walk ard the house. Never do any preparation also dunno why so exhausted. Super shack bun. Maybe bun rested too much. Leg tired, hand tired, back tired. Bun knocked out at 9pm after dinner. Sleepy sleepy sleepy. Yawn.
I guess I gotta work on my stamina
Thursday, 1 November 2012
Last day with nanny
Today's the last Full day the nanny will be ard.
Well, gotta take over her duties. On the flip side, I gonna get more freedom. Muahaha.. I dunno why but I feel a bit restricted in my own house. Strange rite?
But well spent money. Sometimes lil bear is really quite a difficult bear. Im gonna miss the ability to sit back n relax while she changes his diapers, bathes him, cuddles him to sleep.
But hell. I am mummy bun tat brought him into this world. Jus learn lor. But I'm gonna do it my way.
How to cool a crying bear? Pat pat pat, bounce bounce, feed, put oil.
It's a bit strange I have tots of quitting all of a sudden. Frankly the tot of going back gives me creeps. The shit that my team is gonna get is really crazy. And I am the hero to clear the mess. No more preg discount for me. Im be competing fair n square.
But do I have guts to quit? To get preg again in a new place? What if I get bullied? Bun knows how to get things done at my current place. I really hate to venture out of my comfort zone. A comfort zone that's getting a little uncomfortable. Haha.. How ironic.
I'm getting worried for nothing again. Silly silly bun. It's not even like near the end of my maternity. Well, time flies. A month ago I wondered how its like to be a mummy bun n I became one. Now a month has passed n I am gonna find out how it's like to be looking after lil bear without the nanny. But I still got my mummy though. Well, I'm still not alone at least. Relax lah. Bun can do it!
Oh yah, btw, my weight keeps fluctuating between 51 n 52kg. I suspect there's something wrong with the weighing scale. Haha...
Well, gotta take over her duties. On the flip side, I gonna get more freedom. Muahaha.. I dunno why but I feel a bit restricted in my own house. Strange rite?
But well spent money. Sometimes lil bear is really quite a difficult bear. Im gonna miss the ability to sit back n relax while she changes his diapers, bathes him, cuddles him to sleep.
But hell. I am mummy bun tat brought him into this world. Jus learn lor. But I'm gonna do it my way.
How to cool a crying bear? Pat pat pat, bounce bounce, feed, put oil.
It's a bit strange I have tots of quitting all of a sudden. Frankly the tot of going back gives me creeps. The shit that my team is gonna get is really crazy. And I am the hero to clear the mess. No more preg discount for me. Im be competing fair n square.
But do I have guts to quit? To get preg again in a new place? What if I get bullied? Bun knows how to get things done at my current place. I really hate to venture out of my comfort zone. A comfort zone that's getting a little uncomfortable. Haha.. How ironic.
I'm getting worried for nothing again. Silly silly bun. It's not even like near the end of my maternity. Well, time flies. A month ago I wondered how its like to be a mummy bun n I became one. Now a month has passed n I am gonna find out how it's like to be looking after lil bear without the nanny. But I still got my mummy though. Well, I'm still not alone at least. Relax lah. Bun can do it!
Oh yah, btw, my weight keeps fluctuating between 51 n 52kg. I suspect there's something wrong with the weighing scale. Haha...
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