Post natal check

Went to the hospital for a post natal check. Feels so strange going back again. I feel pregnant again. Haha..

Did a papsmear test. I wonder for wat? But well, good lah. Or I won't have done one. So damn bloody scared the doc would put his fingers inside me. Super tensed. Luckily he didn't. He cracked a joke n did the procedure as though he was making coffee! I have to admit, although I dun really like him, he was really good. It didnt hurt at all!

He told me "see u again! Next time :)" but I dun think I wanna see him actually. If I have another one I wanna try out a private hospital. See wats the diff.

Sometimes I forget I got preg before. I forget I have a son! GASP! But not for long lah. Cos the reality is i have to look after him, bear with him at night, and do the mummy stuff.

I think I forget how to work. Me getting comfortable at home. I haven been so relaxed for a long time. A long long while.. I dun feel like going back. I forget the concept of money. What it's used for? Haven bought anything for myself. Lil bear is the only one I think abt these days.

Seriously I live by the day. I think my brain cells all died cos I seldom use them. Yawn. Zzzz time!