Boring bun

Finally met up with boss after damn bloody long year. Work until damn sian wanna quit but dun dare to say. Haha.. If I have kids I Wanna quit too!! Haha... Anyway, screw the job, I kindof less stressed up these few days. Not much business.. Everyone is on leave recently, muahaha... Peaceful. It is so noisy here.. But I guess different families have different practices. But I wonder how I will raise kids.. Haha.. Little terrors.. I guess it's impt to have a happy family, tats all tat matters. Children with happy families are always more well bred. At least they listen to their parents Yesterday I eat steamboat. Eat until cannot eat dinner. Fat Liao. Recently eat until dinner got no space to eat, damn bloated at night. today lucky I shit out everything in the morn.. Feel much better after tat. Bored. What shall I do during my free time? Should I run another marathon? Marathon? Haha..

New year

SHIT I forgot to give my grandma an ang pow!! Yah. I am such an ungrateful bastard. I was born rude n raised with no values.. Forget mah.. Say whatever u like, it's too late. Bloody hell. I knew i missed out something. Of all person I missed my grandma. Honestly I ain't close to her. Cos I jus aint a friendly bun. I guess it's my fault. Hiez... I told u I wasnt in a new yr mood, so many rules. Anyway, I said I won't feel sorry for myself. So be it , next year I give lor.. Today the time passes really fast. Now I have to enjoy the night. Im lying on the sofa nuahing my life away n not feeling guilty. Sometimes I forget I am living in my own house. Forget i got married n live away from my parents. Confused. I think I need to eat more brain pills. Me getting stupid n forgetful.

New year blues

I'm having the new year blues. Strange.. I dun feel like goin visiting tml. I really dun feel like meeting all my relatives. Well, I hope my mood will change. I dunno why but I jus got no mood. Haven even wrapped my ang POWs. Jus dun feel lke it. But well, rather than sit n sulk, I shall jus go with it. I think I got PMS. It's always worse during the time of the month. U know, I think only kids love new year. Parties r fir kids n old people. But got nothing Better to do also so might as well make myself useful. Nothing nice to say, got no resolution, $&@@"##%^^*

boring bun

I'm getting a bit bored after I finished my vampire diaries... nothing much to look forward to.. haha... i have to wait once a week... know i shouldnt be so impatient... but u know, i love superheros.. esp good looking ones..

i have quite a lot of free time on hand and i aint making full use of it. i know.. i work like shit on weekdays, i really should give myself a break on weekends rite?

as much as i try to be appreciative of what i have, i cant contain my restless energy.. its like i need to run another marathon again.. i have been forced to do something i really hate at work again.. jus no job satisfaction.

backroom operations is kindof the clear shit department. where idiots work their asses off because of what is decided upfront.

im kindof used to that. but also sick of this life.

i wonder what i should do? housewife? haha... i dun think that will satisfy me either honestly..

i need to do something to believe that this is the best possible way i am leading my life. every moment, every second. i want to enjoy life.

it has even come to  a point that money doesnt matter. I even wanted to go europe recently. but im going bkk next month. anyway, honestly a trip doesnt really satisfy me. for long that is...i will still come back a restless bun.

but having said that... im still v glad that i dun have that much to worry about.. u know, i dun really suffer much.. i hope it stays that way.. so what if im not a super bun? haha..  

Cannot sleep

I can't sleep. Restless bun.. I wonder if it's the coffee.. Or all the excitement today.. Bloody hell.. I feel so restless now.. I fell asleep, had a dream.. Then woke up at 1am. Now I am wide awake. I guess there is no point lying on the bed and getting frustrated. So I came out to blog. Celebrated mummy's 60 th birthday. Wonderful day. The weather n traffic were all fantastic! The food was great too! Later im going to the bloody office to face some shit I left behind on monday. I feel like quitting again, it's always like tat.. I wonder if I shld go on . Omg, I'm freaking out at the stuff I am used to doing for 6years!! anyway, i now also v edgy.. Trying to keep myself cool now.. Cos I cannot sleep get so upset for wat? Jus sun sleep la! It's not like I have anything on.. I mean got work lah, but it's not v critical. I wonder if I'm alergic to coffee? One cup of thick one n whole night no peace. Or is OT the excercise ? Or I went to bed too early last night. Shall not waste time feeling angry, it's not worth it. Super boliao. Shall go read sonething boring.

New year blog

It's one of those boring days again. U know ah, everyone ard me is either giving birth or expecting. It's kindof weird. But happy for them lah... Oh yah. Yesterday supposed to have new year resolution. 1. Enshrine my beliefs 2. Stay positive n stop feeling sorry for myself 3. Stop procrastinating 4. Become fitter bun Well, I guess all these goals r so vague it's hard to tell what I really gonna do. But at least a change in mindset helps to kickstart the new year! Youth is when we should strive hard to achieve. I'm nuahing around too much. But I wanna enjoy life! Oh yah.. I killed a cockroach at the stroke of midnight. Wat a sign! It's an indication that the year will be fulll of victories! I feel so sleepy.. But I dun like to sleep in other pple Hse. Headache again... Sian.. I wanna get rid of the pain but how? Maybe I gotta jus relax my brain..