Setback at office

Demoralized, sad, embarrassed. I am tempted to quit again.

Faced a small setback at work. My worst fears have come true. Or partly true..

I may have to share my manpower with another team. It's not a good idea of cos! My future headcount cut Forever! ESP bad in times as bad as this when there's a head count freeze.

I am totally at a lost. To agree or not to agree? Tat is the question..

Not agree is to safeguard myself. Agree is for paving future relationship ties.. It gives her some exposure also anyway. But my other team mates will suffer.. Why shld we? Will I end up losing more?

I cant blame them actually. There's so much uncertainty here. So much craziness going on. The economy is good n they freezing headcount. WTH???

A 2 mth transfer.. Humph! I bet it's gonna be forever n bun team will be left one short.

It's when times like this I really feel like quitting. I'm jus an assistant manager looking after a team of 5. Which idiot does that?? An associate got less responsibility but my pay isn't far off.

HieZ.. Why m I still grumbling? I can't stop thinking abt all the negative things! Work prob is the easiest to solve cos I can always quit! But I know I shouldn't run away from problems. It will always come back n haunt me.

I wonder how I can do better as a manager. Or maybe I shld jus relax n do my stuff. I gotta learn to adapt to stress.

Still gotta do my test cases. My test scenarios. Endless stuff to do n I jus wanna waste my life away. Yah I know they pay me to work but I'm jus so so so demoralized that my job feels meaningless.

I no mood still gotta put on a brave front n face my team later. No choice. That's what a leader has to do.

Unless I quit.